Fifty years ago the Commander came into power and murdered all who opposed him. In his warped mind, the seven deadly sins were the downfall of society. He created the Hole where sinners are branded according to their sins and might survive a few years. At best.
Now LUST wraps around my neck like blue fingers strangling me. I’ve been accused of a crime I didn’t commit and now the Hole is my new home.
Darkness. Death. Violence. Pain.
Now every day is a fight for survival. But I won’t die. I won’t let them win.
The Hole can’t keep me. The Hole can’t break me.
I am more than my brand. I’m a fighter.
My name is Lexi Hamilton, and this is my story.
I had a lot of notes on this book written down in a notepad on my laptop, but I forgot to save them
and so I lost them when my computer unexpectedly turned off. Let’s just say I’ve never written
this much notes for one book – and none of them were good.
First off, let me say that I usually love dystopian books; they’re mostly mind-blowing and just leave
me with a sense of ‘wow, more’. This one didn’t.
Normally in dystopia, the heroines are true badass, though still vulnerable, heroes. They think
about others first but still have a great sense of self-preservation. Lexi didn’t. She was incredibly
selfish and egotistical and just plain dumb. I had such great hopes about this one, had been waiting for it to come out
for months because the blurb intruiged me that much. These hopes soon crashed and burned
when I found out exactly what kind of person the protagonist was.
Everything’s about her, even world-changing, mind-blowing discoveries; they’re all about her not
knowing about them, how she feels about them, why nobody told her, etc.
When she got into the Hole and saw really how bad the living conditions there were, I thought
she’d be the kind of girl to want to change those things and be kind to people, trying to change
them and how they lived, but instead she only talked about herself and kept judging people
without reason. Everyone was ‘against’ her for some reason and there were no decent people
around. That’s just not realistic. Her and Cole did keep talking about how people there were
unfairly judged and how most of them never did anything to deserve the brand, but you only
see/read about bad people and she only thinks about how awful everyone there is. It’s very
There is no sense of time, which, for me, in this kind of book, is very important because, even
though she’d only known Cole for (I think) 3 days or two weeks (though not close together,
those are actually quite accurate, which should prove to you exactly how confusing the time there
was), she kept asking favours of him and actually expecting him to do things for her, be nicer to
her. It was terribly frustrating, especially when, according to her, the guatrds are terrible, terrible
people and only they get rights and they keep raping people.
What I didn’t get was why she’d want to keep her ‘thing’ with Cole hidden from Keegan. I just
don’t see the point, since he’s bound to find out eventually and it just makes it seem as if she’s
ashamed of it.
Another thing that bothered me immensly is how pathetic she kept acting. She was
whining about how no one believed what truly happened and that she hadn’t had sex yet, but then
you find out that she didn’t even try to tell anyone because ‘they wouldn’t believe her anyway’.
Ugh. But, even though she doesn’t want to tell her story to anyone, she keeps giving these hints to
Cole and Sutton, just enough to earn their petty sympathy and when she does tell the full story to
Cole, she does it because she doesn’t want him to want or love her anymore, and then she
proceeds by telling him she loves him. And that’s supposed to make him hate her. Huh?
I just hated how she pretended that she’s the only person to even go through something bad – and
when she ‘went through’ wasn’t even all that bad and could have been easily prevented by
growing even the tiniest bit of a backbone.
Oh, and, in the letter, she kept talking about herself in third person. Another pity-gaining attempt.
I had a feeling it’d get better once they got into the compound, and maybe it did, a bit, but once again disappointment ruled.
I just cannot get over how freaking selfish she is. I’m so done with this book and this review, I’m just going to skim the last 30 pages and, I’m sorry, but I’m not even bothering to check this review for mistakes or anything. I’m that done.